"but it is not working"

Simon immediately reads his prayer request in his prayer request box the second he goes to bed "Dear God, please let my heart to not feel so sad". Then sometimes he cries or sobs when going to bed at night. He repeats "I miss Grandpa. I didn't want Grandpa to die. I didn't want him to go to heaven". Tonight, when comforting him, I said as he was missing Grandpa that, that is why we are praying so hard. He said "but it is not working". Our hearts break for him.

On Monday, I took the kids to the library for new books just to get out of the house late in the afternoon before dinner. Only to find out our beloved Ms. Rachael (children's librarian who knows all kids by name), is leaving at the end of this week. And then Daddy had a meeting that night. Simon was hysterical. I think he thought that Dad might not come back; he asked if he was sleeping at the church and if he would see him in the morning. From approaching the library check-out counter to all the way home and for a little while at home and then again at bedtime he sobbed "I don't want Daddy to go. I don't want Ms. Rachael to leave. I didn't want Grandpa to die." Over and over, while hard crying. Too many things going on for his little head and big heart to handle. And he will dearly miss Ms. Rachael, she is the first person he asked a question to in the public environment. He will wait until he sees her to ask for a desired book,even though there are other librarians available to help. Norah will always grab a puppet and get Ms. Rachael to play - and usually get a hug. So the little guy is dealing with tough feelings right now. We just hug, hold, love, pray and help him through the best we can.

I think my grief is through him and his loss of a wonderful Grandpa.